Day 11- At a Crossroads

This is going to be long. Sorry.

OK - here's the deal. When I started this blog, it was more for my benefit then anybody else's. I wanted a diary of sorts, so I could remember and refer back to what I ate, drank, how I felt, etc. I will be 100% honest in what I write regardless of who may or may not like it. I had REALLY REALLY hoped that this blog would be full of nothing but positive experiences. I really wanted to enjoy and like the 24-Day Challenge. But here's the thing...I don't.

My body isn't liking something. I am trying to figure out what it is. But ever since I started, I've really been out of sorts, emotionally. I am VERY grumpy, irritable and have a very stressed out feeling. And it takes A LOT to stress me out. Yes, we've had a busy schedule lately, but its nothing to stress about. We just do it. It all gets done. No big deal. And before anybody suggests it - no, it is not PMS. Not for 11 days.

I have dieted before. I have done Weight Watchers successfully 3 times (losing at least 20 lbs each time I did it). I never felt this way on that "diet."  So, I have no clue what is going on with me.

I don't know if its the sugar "detox" and its withdrawal symptoms from that? I don't know if its the multitude of supplements I'm putting in my body that is making me feel weird because my body isn't dealing well with it all. I don't know. I don't want to blame Advocare if that isn't the problem, you know? I hate not knowing how to fix something. And here's the deal. I'm NOT a quitter. I HATE stopping something in the middle. I DON'T want to quit the 24-day challenge...but I can't take this anymore.  Yesterday while sitting in my children's school pick-up line and attempting to take care of writing some emails while I waited, I started to feel fuzzy. Then I couldn't read the words on my screen on my phone. Then my vision got "blotchy".  And....I still had to DRIVE home. That was a little scary. It lasted about 2 hours and went away to be replaced by a headache, but WHAT THE?!?!  I started a whole entire regiment of new supplements yesterday...did they cause that? Or was it something entirely different?   I did a lot of "research" yesterday afternoon and found no mention of any kind of vision problems associated with Advocare...but some dizziness. So maybe it was dizziness? I don't know.   (edited later to add- I have now realized what I was experienceing this day was a migraine)

So, here's the deal. I am giving it ONE MORE DAY. If the same crazy dizziness/vision issue happens today, I will know what it was - probably some sort of chemical reaction to the new supplements and I will stop taking them (or at least whatever the NEW ones are - the ones I took the first 10 days were fine). If it doesn't happen again, I will consider it a fluke and continue on. 

And I made another decision. I am going to change my eating plan a little. This whole caveman diet - fruits, berries, leaves, nuts, eggs and fish is killing me. (and yes,I know, I can eat more than that, but it certainly feels like it). I am going to do the eating plan I would do while on Weight Watchers...adding in eveything I want to (including sugar), but doing so in moderation, watching portion sizes and keeping sweets at a bare minimum. I LIKE that "diet" better. Maybe if I pair the 24-Day Challenge supplements with that "diet" plan, I will FEEL better. I can't possibly feel worse. I know it won't be a 100% testament to how the 24-Day Challenge EXACTLY works, but somethings gotta give. I cannot continue this way.

And EXERCISE is my enemy right now. I just don't like to do it, as I've mentioned before. Time is not on my side. And exercise has ALWAYS been the key to my weight loss before and as I get older, even more so. I am just going to have to accept that if I am not going to work out 5-6 days a week, the weight isn't going to melt off, like it does when I DO work out regularly. Its going to be a SLOW process this time. Working and managing the home + 2 kids with 2 busy schedules kills mom's workout time. Some will call that an excuse. Ok. whatever. Its how I feel. I am fitting in the Can You 24 workouts when I can. Some is better than none, right?  I can't wait for it to get nice outside so I can walk again...maybe jog a little. I don't mind that too much as long as I'm outside.

So, now that I've completely unloaded all my feelings - this is how my Day 11 went:
30 minutes before b'fast- 1st supplement pack
B'fast of oatmeal and another supplement pack
Snack - 1 hard boiled egg and a banana
30 minutes before lunch - I was SUPPOSED to take another supplement pack. I forgot.
Lunch - leftover fish and vegies from night before and the last supplement pack.
Snack - almonds and maybe some fruit- I  can't remember.
Dinner was tuna salad, whole grain crackers and other things...I can't remember. My whole day was fuzzy.
And I honestly wasn't hungry again (until I laid down to go to sleep at 11:00!). No evening snack.

I spent the evening going to the grocery, prepping fruits and veggies for the week, and I made hubby some B'fast burritos with turkey sausage, eggs, peppers, onions, cheese and whole wheat tortiallas and popped those in the freezer for his b'fasts. Hope they turn out ok! :-) He said they looked wonderful.

And on a side note- Hubby says he feels great! He's lost about 7lbs. I'm happy for him.

And I've noticed another thing this last week and a half. I run my dishwasher EVERY day, which is about 2x as much as I used to. Prepping all these FRESH foods and mixing up salads, etc, sure makes a LOT of dirty dishes! I tend to go through all 4-5 good knives and all three cutting boards EACH DAY! :-)  Invest in a lot of dishwashing detergent before starting this plan! :-) Hehehehe!!

So today is the morning of Day 12. I'm down a total of 3 1/2 lbs. I did take my supplements this morning. And I did have a cup of coffee...it actually ended up being more like a 1/2 cup of coffee, though.  B'fast was oatmeal and a small bowl of berries. So far, so good. I didn't drink a Spark this morning. I can tell the difference, though. While I'm AWAKE, my head feels a tad cloudy. I do like the Spark! And I do like my coffee- I may have to rotate them.  And I'm not really sure what to do with my Meal Replacement Shakes. Bfast? Lunch? As a snack? I have yet to try one. I just wonder how a shake can be better than a meal full of yummy fruits or vegies and other healthy things?

Today is decision day for me. I HOPE, for so many reasons, that yesterday's weirdness was a fluke. I HATE, HATE stopping something in the middle. I WANT to like this program and I WANT it to work and I WANT to finish it. I also want to feel good and happy again. So, I'm at a crossroads. What to do...what to do???

I will update tomorrow morning.